I think I am scared of making a mistake and messing up a beautiful large quilt with my level of machine quilting experience. Sounds kind of dumb, I know but that is partly what I have decided is holding me back from completing some of the many quilts I have on the go. The other thing is to put myself under too much pressure to get the thing done by a certain date and not leaving enough time, so I end up with a lot of back and shoulder pain. Like when I did this one in 10 days as an impulse wedding gift. I quilted it up in 2 days not realizing that I had 2 dislocated ribs. I do what I call scribbling - not real stippling, not real designs, sometimes flowers, or hearts or stars. Sometimes I will write the name of the recipient or a Bible verse.

I have a notebook where I have recorded every quilt start and completion. To date, I have completed half of the 70 full sized quilts or bigger. I hand quilted the first dozen. The last time was 12 years ago when I took a course to learn machine quilting in order to complete some of the UFOs back then. Many were tied. I think I have machine quilted about 12. Three of them were done as squares then connected with strips. I hated that particular technique. I have since found an easier way. That is how I will do GORF.
Initially I was taught to machine quilt with monofilament thread and thought that was the only proper way to make the stitching disappear. I did not think my stitching was good enough yet to showcase with fancy threads. I had to stop and unstitch a lot of messiness and re do it. Not very encouraging to a beginner.
And I was in the middle of a nightmare para-menopause journey filled with mourning, anger and depression. This is the topic of one of the two books I am currently writing, slowly, very slowly. I find the hand work very therapeutic. I want to include the therapeutic value of handwork in my dissertation somehow.
I am totally intimidated by the long arm creations that I see. Having said that, I have rented time on a long arm for this Thurs to quilt up my daughter's latest disappearing nine patch creation for a wedding gift. I still have to preshrink the backing and cut the batting and it is 102 inches square. I will try to remember to take my camera and chronicle the experience. One of my concerns for this is that I am unable to stand on my feet for more than a few minutes at a time with my bad hip and spine. I hand quilted in the beginning but it hurts my hands too much now. Funny that hand applique does not hurt them.
Now I am done whining and making excuses. Last night I listened to 5 hours of lectures on Equipping Saints to Counsel for my doctorate and the Prof talked about how we all make excuses and blame something or someone for our shortcomings. I have to listen to the lectures and answer a 100 question multiple choice test. I had made up a few extra bias strips for BTCT and, since it was easy and I had all the background squares ready, I prepped another 2 blocks that are not on my July Goals list. It took only a few minutes. Anyway, I hand appliqued for 5 hours while doing homework and another hour today. So, I still have 6 hours of this real hard homework to do.
Blessings,
Chris